Wasting Life

29/07/2019

I am 60 In October I will be 61 years old. This week I have my one year  CT  scan to make sure the cancer has not returned. I am feeling much regret. I regret not living life open and honest from the beginning when I first realized I was different. I regret lying to … More Wasting Life

Denying Me

25/07/2019

For most of my life I have lived as if I am someone else. I have tried to live in a way that would keep people at a distance, keep from getting to know me too well. After all,  it is hard to hide when you get too close to others. I did find, for … More Denying Me

I’m Baaaaaaaaack!

22/11/2018

“You have a nodule in your lung.” my doctor commented after a routine chest x-ray revealed a shadow. “Not to worry though, many people have scar tissue in their lungs.” Thus began a eight month journey that I had never expected at the beginning of 2018. Needless to say, I was somewhat anxious but I … More I’m Baaaaaaaaack!

Where I am

10/07/2017

  Right now as I sit in this cafe, a multitude of feelings stir inside me I can physically sense them, and there is much in conflict. Below are a few of the more persistent. Anxiety… because almost nothing in my existence is as I imagined it to be. Truth be told,  I never really … More Where I am

Why You Matter

19/06/2017

I was told in a variety of ways, for much of my youth, that I did not matter. It appeared that I didn’t measure up to what a boy, son, friend, human should be. When I became an adult, I embraced the words drilled into my brain that I did not matter. And because I … More Why You Matter

Lost

12/09/2016

Do you know what it feels like to not to know who you are?  Do you know what it feels like to live in fear of being discovered, of being wrong, of not measuring up to standards set by society? I do. I subjected myself to the whim of everyone. Yet, I was a failure … More Lost